April 13, 2014

Out On A Limb

The problem with me is that I want the adventure of living by faith but I am not always so thrilled about the risk. Recently I made a decision that was really a step of faith but after seeking the Lord felt certain it was what He wanted me to do. The problem is that after the fact a situation arose that caused me to question if I had missed Him. I stayed unsettled for too long as far as I am concerned until the Lord showed me what was wrong. He told me you want to come out on the limb with Me but at the same time you want Me to promise you I won’t saw it off. If you are going to trust me to get out on the limb then you must trust what I chose to do once you are there. You see once I find a level of uncertainty I am comfortable with Jesus always comes along and says go further.
When my relationship with Him becomes obscured it is often because I am not walking in agreement with where He has me at a given point in time. Maybe you can relate. I am always amazed at how simple it is yet why I could not see it before I do not know. It’s like yes I want to follow you but ….. How many examples are given in the word of those who wanted to follow but with conditions attached?
Following Him must always be about who we are following and never about the outcome. Because we have lived in the world so long sometimes we are deceived into thinking this is reality when that is a lie, and so are all the ways of this worlds system we use to justify our disobedience. To be sure our loyalty to Jesus will be put to the test in a number of ways because He wants us to know what is more important to us, our relationship with Him or a false sense of security.
More often than not I have found the thing Jesus is after in me is getting me to be still and trust and not think that I have to do something. Waiting can be so hard sometimes. I have yet to meet anyone who finds it enjoyable. Doing nothing can be hard because that is not the way of our culture and certainly not the way in which I was raised.  Again, there is that dying to self thing. Geez, it never goes away.

January 18, 2014

Conformed To Jesus

Let this mind be in you which was also in Christ Jesus, Who being in the form of God did not consider it robbery to be equal with God but made himself of no reputation, taking the form of a servant and coming in the likeness of men. Being found in appearance as a man, he humbled Himself and became obedient to death, even the death of a cross.

We can say much about being like Jesus in terms of walking in power, our kingdom authority, and the glory of God but all of that starts with a posture of humility, obedience and total dependence on God which flows out of a relationship of intimacy and trust. True humility  can only exhist where personal revelation of our worth and value  to God exhists first.  Without this there is no lowering of ourselves to begin with.

We must recognize and understand that we exist for God, period. He created us for His pleasure and glory (Revelation 4:11). When that becomes our desire, His pleasure and glory becomes what  motivates us, and the rest is easy. All of our worth and value must come from abiding in Christ and communion  with the Father.  It is the reason Jesus said, "apart from Me you can do nothing ."

I am called to live in perfect relation to God (it was his original intent when he created us to begin with) so that my life produces a longing after God in other lives, not admiration for myself. Unfortunately when our identity isn't rooted and grounded in Christ this is often the result.

January 12, 2014

Arise My Love

God nowhere tells us to give up things for the sake of giving them up.  he tells us to give them up for the sake of the only thing worth having.....life with Himself.

January 11, 2014

The Army Of The Lord

Lift up your heads, O you gates!  Be lifted up you everlasting doors!  And the King of glory shall come in. Who is the King of glory?  The Lord strong and mighty, The Lord mighty in battle.  Lift up your heads, O you gates! Be lifted up, you everlasting doors! And the King of glory shall come in.  Who is this King of glory?  the Lord of hosts, He is the King of glory. Psalm 24: 7-10


There's an army rising up....the army that is being raised up and brought to the front lines is made up of those who have been with the King in His chambers.  Those who answered the call to rise up and come away with the King.  They not only have His authority but they have His heart. They are not interested in using His authority to gain anything for themselves but only for the glory of their king. It is His glory they seek, not their own.

There is power in the name of Jesus to break EVERY CHAIN!!

Lord I hear you calling, I hear you beckoning me
Arise My love My fair one and come away with Me


September 15, 2013

God First

The main thing in Christianity is not the work we do, but the relationship we maintain and the atmosphere produced by that relationship. That is all God asks us to look after, and it is the one thing that is continually being assailed”.   Oswald Chambers- My Utmost For His Highest


Sometimes I have to remind myself that it’s ALL about Jesus.  God didn’t put me where He did for a job.  For a ‘job’ He could have put me anywhere, but to pour through me to those He wants to touch those He wants to draw to Himself through the Holy Spirit, He put me where He did.  Do we truly believe that our steps are ordered by God as the word says?  That we may plan our course but the Lord directs our steps? Jesus wants to pour through us but the devil wants to do everything he can to stop that or at the least impede the flow.  One of the ways he does this is through a religious spirit that gets our eyes more on what we are ‘doing’ for God than our actual relationship with God.
Jesus just needs me to yield so He can live through me, touch through me, heal through me, and establish His kingdom through me and sometimes it is without me saying a word.  My responsibility is to see to it that I stay rightly related to Him no matter what.  That is the whole of my life, my relationship with Christ, period.  Not just to go to heaven when I die but to be a clean vessel here and now, to walk in intimate fellowship and communion with the Son of God that is my fulfillment and satisfaction. 
Life is not found in the ‘perfect’ job, the perfect mate, perfect house, car or clothes, whatever….(yet how often does the enemy attempt to get us to believe this, even at times succeeding if only for a while?)Life is found in one place and that is in Christ and to the degree that I truly abide in Him and He in me, it is to that degree that I will have life, and life more abundantly which is what Jesus came to give us. I believe the times we find ourselves adding to that is when it is easier to add something rather than die to something of ourselves so that we may possess more of Him and He of us. 
Our jobs are not about the company we work for, the money we make, (even though we all know it takes money to live here) or the benefits of our job…. It is about one thing and that is Christ.  Do we work where we do because we believe it is where He has sent us or because it pays more or has better hours, etc. I believe without a doubt that If we make our relationship with Him our first priority the rest will take its proper place. Jesus said to take no thought for your life…but to seek first the Kingdom of God and his righteousness and all these things (having our physical needs met) will be added to us. Matthew 6:33

September 5, 2013

I will bring the blind by a way they did not know. I will lead them in paths they have not known. I will make darkness light before them and crooked places straight.  These things I will do for them and not forsake them. Isaiah 42:16
August of 2013  It is a bittersweet day for me knowing that I am stepping into a new season, knowing it is Gods doing yet struggling with letting go of the past, letting go of what is familiar and at one time safe.  Stepping out of our comfort zone isn't easy even when we are sure it is God that is prodding us to move on.  We are likened to sheep in scripture for a reason.  Just as sheep have to be herded to other pastures to graze because where they have been grazing has become bare, so Jesus our Shepherd has to prod us on to greener pastures because just like sheep we would continue to graze in a pasture that can no longer sustain us. 
Letting go of the life I have known for 12 years of being in business with my husband has been a process that actually began last year. Having a home office afforded me a lot of control over my schedule making it easier to tend to my responsibilities as a wife and mother. As any woman knows who has had being a wife and mother a major part of her identity, letting go of that isn't easy especially if it is a role in which you were satisfied and fulfilled.  To me this is really what dying to self is about, not all the religious stuff it has come to be known as.  No matter how uncomfortable we may feel about what we have to do, when we are being led by the Spirit we have that witness on the inside that lets us know it is God who is leading us and not something we are doing on our own.  How grateful I am for this for I have to say there were days I think I would have turned back had I not had that witness.  It is so much easier to discern the Spirits leading when we walk in a place of intimacy with the Lord that has brought our soul into submission to our spirit.
I must be about my Fathers business and for that reason I go forth, not because of money, but because of souls.  Because of the hearts He desires to gather to himself.  Time is so very short. 
I have been so very blessed to have been able to sit at the feet of the Lord, to stand with him on the mount of transfiguration changing my perception of Him in my own heart thereby bringing about my own transformation. We read in the last chapter of Matthew that after Jesus had risen that the eleven disciples went away into Galilee to the mountain which Jesus had appointed for them.  It is interesting to note that the definition of Galilee is 'heathen circle'.  Jesus had told the disciples to tarry in Jerusalem until they received the Promise of the Father, that being the baptism of the Holy Spirit. I waited as the Lord instructed me also, waiting through circumstances that screamed at me to go forth before it was Gods time but it is the Lord we must yield to not our circumstances, our feelings or even our reasoning and logic.  I have learned over the years these things are often contrary to the instruction of the Lord, which is why His peace is so important for us because it does not depend on anything in the natural realm, just His presence.  

September 1, 2013

Hope Does Not Disappoint

It is a funny thing how we can get in in our minds that surrendering is a one time thing.  2 Corinthians states that 'we who live are always delivered to death for Jesus sake, that the life of Jesus also may be manifested in our mortal flesh.  We must understand that it is impossible for the life of Christ in us to be revealed without us surrendering or dying to who we are by the natural man.  Christianity is not meant to be lived by our own power.  Only by the power of the Holy Spirit can the life of Christ be manifested, and that, only as we lay our self down. 

I saw myself with my heart tied to a string while I am walking through mud and mire just pulling it along saying "come on already".  What I am still learning, is that my heart does not belong to me anymore to treat with contempt, to despise it, to drag it through a spiritual sewage plant and then expect good things to come from it.

I find more and more that temptation to sins of the flesh are not an issue so much as is the temptation to not wait long enough on God.  As we mature we should be seeing and hearing more clearly the Holy Spirit revealing to us the things to come, but with that comes the temptation to circumvent Gods order and timing to bring about what He has revealed.  The good thing is that we know from Romans 5 that tribulation produces perseverance; perseverance, character, and character, hope and that hope does not disappoint because the love of God has been poured out in our hearts by the Holy spirit who was given to us.
God is much more interested in our character than our temporary comfort for he knows that character is what produces the hope that does not disappoint and enables us to wait, no matter how long, for God to bring to pass what He has promised.